When asked why I do what I do I immediately responded, "To help people move through their pain more swiftly than I did."
At the age of 22 I felt as though a literal switch turned off in my brain and I was spiraled into debilitating depression, OCD and anxiety. I knew on a soul level that it was not truly me, yet my brain chose to aggressively hook its talons into its truth. For 19 years I tried everything: therapy, Celexa, Prozac, meditation, yoga, hypnosis. I devoured every self help book possible from neuroscientists to Buddhist monks. I constantly lived in a world that vacillated between hiding my insurmountable fear from the real world to self sabotaging to the point of near death. The days where my mind was at a 4 were survivable but my connection to divine joy and life felt irreparably severed. When I met Malidoma in 2017 something magically shifted in me and I began to remember.
I dove into working with this beautiful teacher and I will always say that he saved me but I know he would want me to say that he helped me to save myself. I am here to tell you that it does not have to take that long. It does not have to be a struggle. Each time I worked with him and continued to connect to Divine Spirit and the magic of Mother Nature I felt a shackled piece of my being set free. I felt the neglected petals of my heart space begin to blossom. I felt the untapped gifts within my DNA become ignited. I felt each mistreated piece of my soul that fled in fear come home to be loved unconditionally. I remembered my soul's tone and relearned how to play it with the passion, skill and commitment of a skilled violinist. I would love to help you remember how to treat your being like the masterpiece that it is.
I would love to witness you learning how to sing the song of your life. I would love to reflect back to you the absolute divinity that you are and how essential you are to all of us. I am grateful for the 19 years of shadows that consumed me for they taught me the absolute brilliance of the light that is the magic of life itself.
